Okay, here’s a thought I’ve been chewing on. Deep, existential vibes incoming. So, I’ve always had this sneaky little fear buried deep down inside me. You know, that fear that if someone gets to know me better, like really know me, will they love me more? Or will they realize that I’m just another person, stuck in the same boring routines, doing the same old stuff every day?
Yeah, not exactly the most glamorous thing to think about, huh? But honestly? That’s been my secret. For a long time, I wondered if my “ordinary-ness” would push people away. Like, if I’m not doing something crazy, extraordinary, or wild every single second, would people lose interest? And let’s be real, I’m sure I’m not the only one who has had this anxiety. Please tell me I’m not alone.
But here’s the thing. I’m slowly, but surely, learning that it’s okay to just be me. I don’t need to be this out-of-this-world, super special, headline-grabbing person all the time. As I’ve gotten older (thank you, wisdom, I guess), I’ve started to realize that I don’t need to be constantly impressing everyone around me with some dazzling personality or wild stories. I can just be, well, ordinary.
Growth & Acceptance
Look, the truth is, I’ve got a pretty basic routine. Like, I wake up, I go through my day, sometimes I’ll do something spontaneous, other times I’ll just binge-watch Netflix and eat snacks. Shocking, right? I’m not out there saving the world or dropping some epic, life-changing knowledge every minute of the day. I’m just… living.
And here’s where the growth happens: I’m learning that it’s okay if I’m just… ordinary. Like, my worth doesn’t need to be tied to how extraordinary or exciting I am. If people get to know me better and they realize I’m not this fascinating, larger-than-life character, that’s okay. If they don’t like me for being a regular, flawed human being, then guess what? That’s their loss, not mine.
Fear of Rejection vs. Self-Respect
There’s this fear that always lingers, especially when it comes to relationships, whether it’s friendships, family, or anything romantic. The fear that if people see me for who I really am, they’ll walk away. Like, if they realize I don’t have my life all figured out and I’m just trying to figure it out one day at a time, they’ll think, “Ugh, too basic for me.”
But you know what? If they don’t stick around after getting to know the “real me,” then that’s fine. I don’t need to bend over backward to fit some ideal of perfection just to keep someone around. That’s not how this works. If they don’t love me as I am, whether I’m having a chill day or just trying to survive my to-do list, then maybe we just weren’t meant to vibe.
And the best part? I’m not going to change myself just to make someone like me. Not anymore. Because I’ve realized that the only person I have to impress is me. If I’m happy with who I am, if I’m okay with my own routine and life as it is, then that’s enough.
Embracing My Beautifully Ordinary Self
So, yeah, I guess I’m at a point where I’m embracing the ordinary me. The one who isn’t chasing some impossible standard of perfection. The one who gets tired, gets overwhelmed, and sometimes just wants to sit in her sweatpants and smoke some joints while scrolling through TikTok. And you know what? That’s perfectly okay.
Because, at the end of the day, what really matters is that I’m comfortable in my own skin. Whether I’m doing something exciting or just existing, I’m worthy of love. The right people will love me, ordinary quirks and all.
So, to everyone out there struggling with this same fear of being “too ordinary,” take a deep breath. It’s okay to just be yourself. If someone doesn’t appreciate that, then they’re not the right fit. Keep doing you, and trust that the ones who are meant to stick around will see the magic in your “ordinary” self.
Until next time, stay chill, stay unapologetically you, and don’t stress about being “special.” You already are.
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