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Since I didn’t write for a month, today I just feel like writing about this thing that’s been in my head. For me, I kinda feel like witch is maybe just a feminist in the 1000th century, you know? Like back then, if you were self-aware, spiritual, had your own thoughts, maybe stubborn, maybe a little weird, people just called you a witch. To be a witch, you can’t just wake up and be like, “Okay now I’m a witch.” It takes self-awareness, intuition, a little bit of skill. Same as Devil, I don’t think he’s necessarily this evil bad guy people make him. Maybe stubborn, maybe rebellious, but not the villain.

These kinds of stories exist for a reason anyway. To make us see things in categories: good or bad, right or wrong, black or white. But everything in life is both. Yin and yang. You can’t just be one or the other. You can’t be only feminine or only masculine. You can’t be an angel if there’s no devil. Then what would be the challenge? What would angels even fight for? You can’t be human without your witch part, that little freaky weird part of you that people don’t always understand but it’s there.

In movies everyone’s scared of witches, but really? Witches were the victims. All we wanted was to have our little ritual girlie time, and suddenly that was illegal. Back then nobody gave a shit about what women thought, so the second we had our own ideas, our own independence, boom they made it a crime.

That’s why I think feminist and witch are basically the same energy. At the core, feminism is for everyone. It benefits the whole society. But people twisted it because of the word “fem”, and some men got triggered. Like it’s an attack. But it’s not. It’s the same as witch, the second you step into your own power, people are scared.

And honestly, I think everyone has a witch side. Mine activated about five years ago and I’m kinda crazy about it now. Astrology, tarot, crystals, yeah, I’m into all that woo woo shit. And I’m more confident about it these days too. Not in the “I can predict the future” way, but like as a tool to keep myself sane. It’s fun. It’s how I balance my peace of mind. Pulling a tarot card when I’m overthinking doesn’t magically fix everything, but it makes the overthinking fun. And trust me, I’m gonna overthink anyway, so I might as well add some magic.

I actually think all of this started with lockdown, no plans, too much brain time, I picked up a tarot deck, then a crystal, and that led to astrology and the rest of the witchy corner. That’s when the witch in me woke up. If quarantine taught me anything, it’s that being alone with your thoughts can be the moment you find your own ceremony. That’s where it began for me.

And look, people laugh. People love to call astrology “fake” or “nonsense.” Like babe, you’re crying over Mercury retrograde without even knowing it. But I’m not against reality either. Mercury retrograde sucks sometimes, sure. But that doesn’t mean it’s the only thing happening. Maybe you’re the one bringing half your problems, too. I’m not that crazy to blame the stars for everything. Tarot, astrology, and crystals they’re tools. They make overthinking interesting. They give language to feelings you couldn’t name before. If that’s “fake” to someone, fine. I’ll take my fun spiralling, thank you.

But it doesn’t have to be astrology or writing like me. Everyone should activate their witch side somehow. Meditate, go to therapy (modern witchcraft tbh), draw, crochet, dance, cook, whatever keeps you sane. Anything that makes you feel like you’re reflecting and alive at the same time. That’s witchy.

Sometimes I even think maybe before the world became this… concrete box, humans really did have more raw power. Like the ability to manifest shit, to create out of thin air. But now we’re surrounded by rent due, traffic jams, people not texting us back, overthinking whether we’re bad at anything, or wondering if our parents ever loved us. All these dumb heavy things drag us down. And maybe that’s why adding some witch woo woo into your life is necessary. Just for the mind. Just so you can daydream again. So when I pull the Queen of Wands, I get to imagine myself as her. Even if I know I’m just spiralling, at least it’s fun spiralling.

That’s what I’m saying, sometimes you gotta be weird, sometimes you gotta be witchy. Embrace the part of you that people don’t get, because that’s the part that makes you magnetic. That’s the part that attracts your real people, the ones who understand. And when you live like that, you start attracting good things without even trying.

I feel like I’m at a place where I’m just being good and letting good things come to me. Free. Open. Like, yeah, I can’t do everything I want yet, but that doesn’t mean it’s never gonna happen. My witch side is like, “bitch it will happen, but it’s not gonna be comfy all the time.” And that’s fine. That’s life. You’re not always gonna be good or nice or carefree. Sometimes shit is ugly. But even in the ugly parts, you get something out of it. Every time I’ve been down bad, I came out learning something new, realising it all happened for a reason.

So yeah, embrace your witchy woo woo side. Don’t care if people roll their eyes. Do the thing that scares you a little. Trust your gut, even if the result is bad, even if you get embarrassed or heartbroken. We’re not gonna die from that. So why waste time focusing on what could go wrong when you could think about what could go right?

Don’t underestimate the power of your mind. Don’t underestimate the witch in you. She’s been waiting.