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Good Things Are Real, Even If the World Is Fucked Up
I want to remind myself that good things are real and possible. I know the world is so fucked up right now that even imagining good things feels insane sometimes. We live in this world full of awful, evil, heartbreaking shit, and yet somehow good things are still around us. They exist for sure. I…
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I know I Can Do It Alone… But Why Should I?
I can do it alone.I can do anything alone.But maybe… I don’t have to. I mean, of course I can. I’ve been doing everything by myself for so long that independence is literally my default setting. It’s the thing that shaped me into who I am right now and I actually love that about myself.…
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I Know I’m Lovable, I Just Forget it sometimes
Yeah, I know I’m lovable. I know that. But even knowing that, I still have doubts sometimes. I still get that thought in my head that if people really, really know me, they’ll eventually leave. These days those thoughts feel blurry, like they don’t fully have power over me anymore, but they still come back…
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Let’s Bring Back Feeling Too Much Instead of Nothing at All
Oh… I am a very sentimental person, and I love that a lot. I’m always reminiscing about things. Sometimes I’ll just sit there and replay little moments in my head, random things that made me laugh, people I met once and never saw again, nights that felt infinite for no reason. I get so happy…
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Maybe Love Can Be Easy
I was watching a series the other night, and there’s this one specific couple on the show that I really love. I love how their relationship goes, how they talk to each other, how they move together. I like their dynamic. And I want that. I know it’s just a fictional show, and maybe it’s…
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Yes, I’ll Die Alone. And?
I was watching Thunderbolts*, and there’s this one line in the movie: “We’re all alone. All of us.” It’s not even meant to be that deep, but in that moment, I was like, yeah, that’s true. We are born alone and we will die alone too. But for me, that’s not sad at all. That’s…
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There’s Nothing Wrong with Wanting to Be Perfect (But Only If You’re Willing to Fail)
I’ve been watching Nip/Tuck on Prime the past few days. At first, I didn’t think I’d like it. It’s basically about two pathetic men doing stupid shit and spiraling and it’s way more dramatic than I expected.You’d think grown-ass 40-year-old surgeons would have some sort of maturity, but no. They’re out here acting like chaotic…
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Maybe I’m Not Scared After All
I saw an Instagram post about PinkPantheress winning a chess tournament today, and I thought that was so cool. And then the first thing I thought after that was, “I don’t know how to play chess,” and immediately after that, “I probably can’t do it.” But I caught myself. Why is that my default thought?…
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Nothing Changes If Nothing Changes
I heard someone say this while I was watching Cold Case. The guy was talking about the public school system, how broken it is, how long it’s been broken and then he said it: “Nothing changes if nothing changes.” I don’t even know if he’s the suspect yet (fingers crossed he’s not), but I liked…
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Nothing Is Really About You (And That’s a Good Thing)
We’re living in a world where everyone thinks everything is about them. Every stare, every comment, every silence, it’s all taken personally. And I get it. It’s a human thing. We want to be liked. We want to be seen. We care, sometimes a little too much, about how we show up in people’s minds.…
